Howling with Life...

Well with the full moon already in her glorious movement of this phase I wanted to stop, and reflect, listen to what has truly transpired in this time for me. It seems to all about RELEASING AND GAINING FREEDOM. I spent much of the first night in meditation, healing and forgiving myself for all that needed to be cleansed. Much to my amazement, which by now it shouldn't but anyways, there was plenty to be acknowledged and faced head on. The feelings that night were all over the place, hard to stay in the moment, and really feel each one. It was kinda like watching a slideshow, moving at a pace faster than the eye can grasp. Uncomfortable kept creeping in too, uneasy with my own silence my own vulnerability, facing what is surely disconnected. First night moon proved to be a igniting of more to come.

The second night of the full moon, turned deeply dark as I kept getting sucked down into the vortex of the night. I sat in my darkness, embraced it all of it for it lives in me. Tears flowing non-stop some I understood, some I just tasted the saltiness it reminded me of the sea, and I did not understand. The washing away of hurt, pain, and betrayal these were the tangy and distasteful. I was granted the stillness of the night, when it stood still things slowed to a halt and in that moment clarity and vision struck me. I cannot say I felt freedom but oh the release of the waters of my choices, they swirled murky and muddled as they flooded out from the corners of my eyes. Yes, the second night of this February Full Moon came and went leaving me in limbo til night 3.

AWE the third night of grandmother moon. This how I greeted her, as my family, as my elder with wisdom and lessons to be gained and pained. The releasing from the night before broke through the dam that I had built over the last moon phase. I called to her and she answered with bright light and glowing praise. She wrapped me in her power the cosmos energy surrounded me. This last might I came to believe that FREEDOM and RELEASE go hand in hand and one cannot achieve one with the other. Freedom is RELEASE.

It was a gloriously painful moon phase, and yet here I write all the beautiful sorrowful moments and the gift of seeing them through. Love, Light and Peace.